If the Night Were My Friend (In Memoriam)

[LadySolaris]

If the night were my friend
And did not have the face of pain
I could extend the arms of my mind
And seize far-away emotions.
I could feel your caress brush my skin
Through a nocturnal gust of wind
And in the dim moorland of the soul
Your smile would return and thrive
Mother, your smile, so
So tired – You waited
With your frail body
Almost to ask me for forgiveness
Because you had to go
Distressed only by my pain.

If in the night a dream were gracious
In that fetal timelessness
I could collect distant memories.
Perhaps I would still be with you
To travel again over ancient paving
To return to the town ringed by fragrant hills.
My hand in your hand.
If I could, I would gather the light of stars
To illuminate your peaceful eyes.
I would walk with you on the shore
Of the sea, on the wet sand,
Watching the small waves slap our feet
If I could, I would gift you with the music
Of a shell, to fill your heart.

If the night were my friend
I could – for one more time
Hold your precious face tightly to my chest,
Before the stud of gems of dawn
Calls me back to live my role
Where I drag my leaden shadow
Along solitary roads,
In company of everyday thoughts –
Unraveled, worn down, and fraught.
Awaiting, in the silence of the heart,
Another gentle night.
On this recurring wave,
See-sawing between dream and reality,
You cradle me now without a sound
While your smile is perpetually
Tethered to my heart.

(In memoriam, to my mother, April 1931 - December 2009)

[Ron Atchison]

This is so tender and sweet, like the love it describes (so perfectly.) Thank you again LadySolaris. Your words have touched my heart.

~ Ron

[Lion~*]

Rich sorrow and treasured love... your soul speaks as always... in vibrant emotional color. I wept. I am deeply saddened for the grief your daughter heart journeys along.

Love Janice

[LadySolaris]

Thank you, both.

[mwzephyr]

A loving gracious gift indeed to your mother.

[Morning Bear]

I sit here wiping the tears away thinking of the sorrow that accompanies each passing, and of my grandmother who will soon be gone, and of others who are near that portal, and just am saying thankyou Lady Solaris, for all the beauty and love in this poem.

[jc_nithya]

real pain..true love..deep thoughts...
very beautiful!

[Pollie]

Very beautiful. It moves me with the two of you, as if I am an unseen part of that picture. I feel it, I see it, I hear it, very beautiful.

Thank you =)
Pollie

[Sadness Princess]

Very touching and sincere. I love your poem and I think knowing that someday I will be needing to say these words... makes me feel everthing you expressed deeply... imagining myself between your lines looking for my own mom..... and my personal memories with her.... although she is still alive..

[Davidf]

Lady Solaris,
Y?ou have taken the pain and sorrow of your mother's death (at least I would imagine it was painful and sorrowful, at least at the time) and turned it to something beautiful and heartwarming. Nicely done.
~Davidf